Memorable Event

This past New Year’s I was able to attend my favorite bands concert. The Avett Brothers. I went with my best friend Hannah Aaron. We had this night planned all year. We got our tickets for general admission and waited in line for 4 and 1/2 hours in the freezing cold on the hard concrete in order to get front row to my favorite band. After all that time waiting and freezing our butts off we were turned away at the door, and told we were sent the wrong tickets. Our spirits plummetted. We did not think we could recover our night. But the concert was unbelievable. The Avett Brothers put on a concert like no other. They played their hearts out. That was about the happiest I’ve been. I left the concert excited about so many aspects of the coming year, and a renewed love and appreciation of The Avett Brothers.

Theme Song

“Head Full Of Doubt / Road Full Of Promise”

-The Avett Brothers

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see itWhen nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
And in the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what’s right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out

There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

 

I chose this song because I feel that it is a true and accurate representation of where I am in my life. I’ve been dealing with many conflicting decisions, and I love the lyrics, and how it describes being enlightened, and finding what ever knowledge I may be seeking. The song displays my frustration, confusion, and excitment about the years I have ahead of me. Sometimes I want to just get away and try new things and my oppurtunites to do those things are just ahead of me. It makes the perfect theme song for me and my situation I am in, in my life.

Annual Report

Last year was probably the toughest year of my life. Academically, emotionally, physically draining. I was in a constant state of exhaustion. It seemed to me that life was throwing everything it could at me. My best friends, and sister went off to college. And the other sister got married, and got her own life. My parents were in the middle of splitting, and with all this school got 1,000 times more stressful. I had a tremendous amount of pressure on me for everything. Tennis, band, clubs, school work, the impending doom that was the SAT and college. To sum up last year… It sucked. But I made it through because of great friends like Hannah Jane.

Currently life is still stressful but for a lot more welcome reasons. School is not quit as hard this year, I did not have to worry about band, which was a huge relief. I have more freedom because I can drive, which has allowed me to go visit my friends at school more. My worries now come down to college. Where  am I going to go? What I am going to do? How am I going to pay for it? What scholarships are available this month? What essay do I need to write today? When do I start financial aid? These are questions I think nearly everyday of my life right now. But I don’t really mind, because even though it is stressful, it is exciting to think about my future, and the fact that this time next year I will be off on my own, in a different place, experiencing things for myself. It will be nice when I will be able to figure out where I am going to school. But until then I will continue stressing, and writing essays.

One Medium Suitcase

I love packing. There is something really exciting about the act of packing up a suitcase, I think its because it always means you are always going somewhere different. We all have our own methods of packing. I always make a master list of everything I need, planning out every outfit for each day. But I’ve wondered, what would I pack if I were to leave home forever?

Of course I would pack the necessities such as clothes. But If I only had a medium sized suitcase, I would try to fit everything I could, and it wouldn’t be so much clothes as it would those things that I cherish most. I would pack the jewlery box my mom gave me for my 16th birthday. The pictures of my family over the years. My postcards, and rosary. The alabaster and glass elephant figures on my dresser. My records. The copy of Little Women that my mom (Marmi) signed for me. They may just sound like ordinary items to you, but for me, they mean everything. They bring back memories from some of the greatest times in my life. Whether it reminds me of people I have meet, or times I have shared with others. These items are what make me feel at home. So no matter where I go I would have these are the items that make anywhere feel like home.

Extraordinary Pet

We all have that one little furry companion that is as much a part of your family as you are. They are our pets. Pets give us what we all want most, unconditional love. No matter how much you yell at them, or no matter what you do, or what you look like, or who you are, a pet will always love you! Nothing is better than getting home from a long day to be greeted by someone whose whole life revolves around you walking through the door.

There is nothing we all enjoy more than to gush about our pets to other people. So here I go. My dog Skip… is the bomb. We named him after the dog in the movie… My Dog Skip. He is a Jack Russel Terrier. One side of his face is black and the other, white. He has one brown eyebrow, and one white. And two super soft black ears. His body is white and covered in wiry hair. He has more spunk and personality than most people. In his younger years he must have been the fastest dog alive. To quote Forrest Gump “He ran like the wind blows”. Jack Russel’s are known for their intelligence. Unfortunately Skipper uses his power for evil. He has been the hugest pain to the entire family. But we all still love him so much. I don’t remember a time in my life before Skip. He is 13 now and slowing down more and more. He has been my roommate since forever. When he is gone I don’t know what I will do. I love my little Skipper so much, and he will always be my extraordinary pet.

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Telling Tales

There is not a family out there that can tell a story like mine can. The entire Black side of my family was granted the gift of spectacular story telling. When we all get together, it is a riot of screaming, and laughter. We tell stories about everything. From our family history, to things that happen on a daily basis. But by the end we are always crying, and rolling with laughter.

Even though we like to joke alot, my family has seen a lot of tragedy. I’ve often thought that the Black family history could be written into a book. The stories I have heard over the years have been so unreal, no one would believe them. Just to give you an example…

There is a lake just 45 minutes from where my grandparents live in New York. It is Tupper Lake. My family is famous throughout the area. Six family members have died in that lake on sepate occassions. My great grandfather, along with my grandpa’s sister and brother were riding across the lake to go to their hunting camp, when the boat capsized. All three froze before they could drown. My grandpa found his father’s body floating at the lakes shore, a year later. His brother and sister were never found. During the winter Tupper Lake freezes over enough so that it is normally safe to drive on the ice. But on this one particular time three cousins that my dad was living with at the time went ice fishing when their car unexpecatantly fell through the ice. All the young men died from hypothermia.

Not including these deaths, 9 family members have died from drowning. Now, I know that these arent happy stories that show how charismatic my family is. But I have heard these stories many times over. They once caused a lot of pain, but now bring a round of rememberance of those that were lost, and all that our family has endured.

Room Sweet Room

There is a hook hanging from the ceiling in my room. A pink princess canopy used to hang from that hook. It is now crooked, and covered with dust. Everytime I see the hook I think about how much things have changed. How much I have changed.

One thing is very evident upon entering my room. I love to travel. I have a wall of postcards, covered from floor to ceiling with ones from all over the United States, and World. Some I have recieved from others, and some I got for myself. But everytime I come into my room I see those postcards, and think back to individual moments, from the best times of my life. I have a poster of the eiffel tower, and other places I have been of want to go. All these things remind me of where I am going, and where I have been.

My room is full of so many great memories, displayed through postcards, pictures, and posters. I feel at home in my room sweet room.